Connie Boss Alexander is reflecting on life without her son Stephen “tWitch” Boss.
Six months after the Ellen DeGeneres Show DJ and co-executive producer died by suicide, his mom opened up about her grief and her optimism that she’ll be reunited with her son.
“This is not totally the end,” Connie told People in an interview published June 28. “That is where my peace comes from.”
She also said, “When I think about him, I try not to dwell on how he left this earth.”
And Connie, 59, admitted that she’s still grappling with Stephen’s sudden death in December at age 40.
“You find yourself in a lot of introspection, a lot of looking back,” she noted. “Did I miss something? Did he mean something when he said this? It was just very, very shocking. I don’t know when or if I’ll ever accept it. At this point, I’m in realization, I guess. When I wake up in the morning, it does hit me that, oh my God, he really is not physically here. But then in my head I can hear him say, ‘Hey, Mom. I’m okay.'”